I'm still alive, but don't feel like it
Wednesday, March 27, 2013 by k10w3 | Discussion: Community
Hey my WinCustomize buddies -
I'm just letting you all know the reason I've been on hiatus. It wasn't that I was only active here until I was made Master and then bolted. 
My husband, whom I had been supporting for 12 years, decided he would get hassled less about doing nothing with his life, if he left me and moved in with his cousin, so I've been nursing a broken heart and trying to get my finances together because when the jerk left, he took our only car with him.
I've got a couple of new skins started, but honestly, I'm not going to be able to crank them out as fast as I used to, because in order to keep my mind healthy, I need to work out every day, spend time in mindfulness meditation, and I've been getting out and about, since finally buying myself a used car a couple weeks ago, doing things with the few friends and acquaintances I've made here on my own in Tulsa.
I just wanted you to know, I still have skin ideas, I still plan on carrying through with them, but I'm a mess right now, and although it's been 3 months since he left, it's not getting any easier on me, and I feel like I'm just going through the motions of moving on with my life. I found myself writing poetry a few nights ago, which I have never done before, so the creative flow is still within me; at some point, I'm hoping I'll be able to channel this pain into Photoshop and create some dark, gothy, industrial, hard skins.
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Reply #42 Thursday, March 28, 2013 3:36 PM
The tattoo probably reads 'BASTE' instead of 'BEAST'. That's what you get for going to Zubaz's tattoo parlour
Reply #43 Thursday, March 28, 2013 3:45 PM
The tattoo probably reads 'BASTE' instead of 'BEAST'. That's what you get for going to Zubaz's tattoo parlour
nah, I reckon it reads 'BAST...' and is a work in progress.... 
Reply #44 Thursday, March 28, 2013 3:53 PM
Reply #45 Thursday, March 28, 2013 5:57 PM
I have been following the situation since it started. You know how to get ahold of me if you wish.
Reply #46 Friday, March 29, 2013 6:42 AM
He'd have to answer the bell or knock or whatever and upon seeing it burning the first thought to come to mind would be to stamp it out. And if he's high at the time......it'll freak him out. Should have someone do it and record it with a phone camera then upload it to YouTube...it would go viral instantly. Be even better if the bag exploded. Then he'd really be a 'shitty' person.
Reply #47 Friday, March 29, 2013 11:29 AM
Reminds me of a stunt we used to do as kids on Guy Fawkes night... fresh cow patties in a cardboard box, a couple of large bangers in the turd with their fuses conveniently sticking out of the loosely fitted lid. We'd find a doorstep [usually of someone we didn't like] and one would knock on the door while the other placed the box and lit the fuses.
Hehe, we'd run like all buggery and hide close enough by to hear the explosion and the coarse language that usually occurred after getting a shite shower.
Yeah, I know, I was a bugger of a kid, but it would have been a crime not to have carried out the myriad of practical jokes/gags that we spent many hours concocting and planning.
Reply #48 Friday, March 29, 2013 5:30 PM
He'd have to answer the bell or knock or whatever...
Nope...he wouldn't. He wouldn't hear the bell or knock, and even if he did, he'd just stay seated, oblivious to anything but the thoughts inside his own skull, and wait for whomever is ringing the bell or knocking to leave.
I know it's really hard to wrap your head around how someone can be so totally unmotivated, but he just doesn't give 2 shits about anything that doesn't immediately benefit him without him having to exert himself, and there is no benefit to him answering a door.
Reply #49 Saturday, March 30, 2013 1:53 AM
I know it's really hard to wrap your head around how someone can be so totally unmotivated, but he just doesn't give 2 shits about anything that doesn't immediately benefit him without him having to exert himself, and there is no benefit to him answering a door.
count yourself lucky you got rid of the dead wood.... sounds like pruning was overdue...
you've been patient in the extreme.. focus on getting back to your family.... and not mulling over the past... pretty soon it'll be a hazy memory...
Reply #50 Saturday, March 30, 2013 5:16 AM
Quoting Uvah, reply 46
He'd have to answer the bell or knock or whatever...
Nope...he wouldn't. He wouldn't hear the bell or knock, and even if he did, he'd just stay seated, oblivious to anything but the thoughts inside his own skull, and wait for whomever is ringing the bell or knocking to leave.
I know it's really hard to wrap your head around how someone can be so totally unmotivated, but he just doesn't give 2 shits about anything that doesn't immediately benefit him without him having to exert himself, and there is no benefit to him answering a door.
Sounds like somebody who expected to be waited on hand and foot, and nobody deserves to be treated like a slave/servant by their spouse or partner. That to me shows a total lack of respect and is something I could never do to someone I love... supposed to love. I fail to understand why anyone would behave that way, but obviously there are some who do and shame on them.
Anyway, you acted beyond and above the call of duty for far too long, so now it's your time to be who you want to be.
Reply #53 Monday, April 1, 2013 2:38 PM
Despite being in his thirties my arse. I'm 60 next month and I'd still deposit surprise packages on doorsteps if could run the f**k away.
But then again, one of them motorised wheelchairs might be just the thing.... I got a mate who likes to soup up cars, bikes, mowers and things.
Hehe, I can see me in one of those... doing burnouts and wheelies, and the cops, no hope of catching me. 
Areeba, areeba.
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Reply #41 Thursday, March 28, 2013 2:43 PM