I cant even believe this is happening to me
Sunday, August 17, 2008 by Vampothika | Discussion: Community
I always thought life sucked, but even more so than now. i got diagnosed with cancer of the breast. and quite frankly im pretty numb, i have no feelings to even find. this is what god has now decided to shove down my throat. the darker half of me just wants to let it fester internally until it kills me, so i can finally fullfill my lifelong dream and join my dad in his grave. the other half says fix it, get the opporation. i dunno what to do
quite franky, im pretty sure most of you are secretly thinking "oh goodie shes going to die...' I dont blame you, I never wanted anything but to be liked by people. its pretty hard when you dont have a mind that functions like everyone else, so your just not normal in the first place. so it really makes no difference if your liked or not, either way your just an outsider....
I dont want anything, reply if you want, or dont reply either way, i have to deal with this my own way. so if you dont see me in the forums, but you see me skin every now and then, yeah im still here, but what ever my fate is, will just be that, my fate.........................
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Reply #42 Wednesday, August 20, 2008 1:28 PM
Goes for you too Angus. I'll be praying for you.
Reply #43 Wednesday, August 20, 2008 1:47 PM
Reply #44 Wednesday, August 20, 2008 1:49 PM
Reply #46 Thursday, August 21, 2008 4:19 PM
Kitty,
God has nothing to do with any illness. He came to heal and save us giving us eternal life. The price He paid for our healing is unthinkable. You know He is your father, daddy, Abba. would your father wish this upon you? I know not.
The enemy, Satan came to lie, kill and destroy.
We are a family in this WinCustomize Community and if only 1% pray for you that is an awesome power.
I am sorry to say medical doctors only answer to cancer is to cut, poison, and burn so I think it is wonderful you are open to going to a naturopath.
It is also a good idea for you and everyone around you to speak positive, the spoken word is very powerful. What you spoke in your opening comments was not helpful.
I have a friend who had breast cancer so bad it had spread to about 12 lymph nodes. She chose not to have her breasts removed only the lumps in her breasts and her lymph glands. She used a very intensive program of nutrients and supplements to completely irradicate her cancer many years ago. I would love to give you her telephone number if you are interested.
We love you KittyMalone,
Peter
Reply #47 Wednesday, August 27, 2008 3:01 PM
Reply #48 Wednesday, August 27, 2008 7:58 PM
Only way to be Jim. Good for your mom.
Reply #50 Wednesday, August 27, 2008 9:40 PM
Huh? Those answers as you put them have saved MANY lives. In my opinion, don't go the Naturopath route. Ultimately it's your decision Kitty, but sound medical treatment is your best way to treat your cancer. I will also say a prayer for your well being. I also have to add that a positive attitude is also very helpful to aid in your recovery. Stay strong Kitty.
Reply #51 Wednesday, August 27, 2008 11:32 PM
Kitty, I am very sorry to hear about your cancer. Life is not easy. But I know you are strong enough to fight this. We all love you and care about you. Please seek out a good doctor and get yourself on a road to healing. None of us know when our time on this earth is up. So you have to make the most of the time you have.
Having breast cancer is NOT the end. I know a lot of women who are surivors.. And you can be one too. You will be in my prayers, for strength and courage and healing.
Stong mind ..... Strong body... Please work on both... 
Reply #52 Wednesday, August 27, 2008 11:33 PM
Sorry about the darn Smileys, I have never used this before.. Not smart on my part..
Just meant to send you a smooch....
Reply #54 Monday, September 22, 2008 9:01 PM
Darn, I just responded to your "I'm back" post not realizing all of the picture. We love you for who you are and regardless of the changes in one's life, you'll still be who you are. good luck, please keep us posted.
Reply #55 Saturday, October 18, 2008 2:12 AM
im awsome guys (now)........thanks for your concern and caring attitude.......it really goes a long way (hugz)
Reply #56 Saturday, October 18, 2008 2:57 PM
It's great to see you back online Kitty, you have been missed around here. I'm glad that you're feeling better within yourself and feeling awesome again.... cos you're a pretty special lady in the hearts of many of us here who love and enjoy your work so much.
Again, it's really great to see you. 
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Reply #41 Wednesday, August 20, 2008 11:48 AM
I am a 3 year survivor of lung cancer and have severe COPD. Just found out a few weeks ago that I now have prostate cancer and am having surgery on 9/11. I tell you this because a diagnosis of cancer is not the end. Giving up is the end, not smiling and laughing is the end and not fighting with every fiber of your sole is the end. Seek the best help you can find. Take the treatments. Never give up and never give in. You have 3 million + members here to hold your hand whenever you need someone.