I seriously need cheering up..........
Wednesday, July 16, 2008 by Vampothika | Discussion: Community
Every once in awhile i slump into deep depression, and i struggle to keep living, but my mind never stops with.....shall we say negative whispers, of the demon kind..... stuff i wouldnt even want to bestow my worst enemy with......
so im asking for those who care about me to please leave me some kind words, why you like me, why i am here, who i am, and guide me back on the road to recovery again.............. 
.....i dont want attention........i want help to remember why it will be okay again soon.....*sigh*
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Cynder-Elluh
Reply #42 Thursday, July 17, 2008 10:31 PM
very cool Zubaz...
being able to find/recover things that you misplace or accidently leave behind
finding lucky pennies, or lost money
making wishes on the first evening star
remembering good dreams
playing with warm, melted candle wax between the fingers
watching a person sleep
rewatching the videos that you created from a video camera
listening to drunk voicemail messages
LAST BY NOT LEAST; music….....no explanation needed for music!!!
Big hugs, friends (even new ones)in cyber-space that have been there at one time or another!!
Reply #42 Thursday, July 17, 2008 10:31 PM
http://www.thingstobehappyabout.com/
very cool Zubaz...
being able to find/recover things that you misplace or accidently leave behind
finding lucky pennies, or lost money
making wishes on the first evening star
remembering good dreams
playing with warm, melted candle wax between the fingers
watching a person sleep
rewatching the videos that you created from a video camera
listening to drunk voicemail messages
LAST BY NOT LEAST; music….....no explanation needed for music!!!
Big hugs, friends (even new ones)in cyber-space that have been there at one time or another!!
starkers
Reply #43 Thursday, July 17, 2008 11:51 PM
Reply #43 Thursday, July 17, 2008 11:51 PM
Whatcha mean, NT?....
What you insinuating here? That I don't throw a good misery party????
I'll have you know that I throw the best misery parties there has ever been! Not only is there pretzels and boxes of tissues in abundant supply, I get in lots of sad movies on DVD, a politician or two to give speeches.... and all 'house' music is the blues.
Orright, theres no booze on hand, just Tetleys and scones with jam and cream... but nobody, I mean NOBODY leaves my misery parties with a dry eye... cos if none of the above work, patrons with dry eyes are locked in a room with Tiny Tim's rendition of 'Tiptoe Thru The Tulips' until they're sobbing appropriately.
Seriously, tho, when I'm feeling a bit depressed I turn to comedy. I mean, why have serious thoughts that can turn ugly when you can turn to the sublime and ridiculous... anything absurd, ludicrous and totally wacky to get a laugh/bring a smile to your face.
Yep, that's right, when I'm feeling low - questioning the meaning of life/why am I here - I turn to Monty Python: "The Life of Brian" and "The Meaning of Life" for answers.... and they're all there, too....
"Always look on the bright side of life... de-do, de-do, de-do...."
It's not the pretzels....
What you insinuating here? That I don't throw a good misery party????
I'll have you know that I throw the best misery parties there has ever been! Not only is there pretzels and boxes of tissues in abundant supply, I get in lots of sad movies on DVD, a politician or two to give speeches.... and all 'house' music is the blues.
Orright, theres no booze on hand, just Tetleys and scones with jam and cream... but nobody, I mean NOBODY leaves my misery parties with a dry eye... cos if none of the above work, patrons with dry eyes are locked in a room with Tiny Tim's rendition of 'Tiptoe Thru The Tulips' until they're sobbing appropriately.
Seriously, tho, when I'm feeling a bit depressed I turn to comedy. I mean, why have serious thoughts that can turn ugly when you can turn to the sublime and ridiculous... anything absurd, ludicrous and totally wacky to get a laugh/bring a smile to your face.
Yep, that's right, when I'm feeling low - questioning the meaning of life/why am I here - I turn to Monty Python: "The Life of Brian" and "The Meaning of Life" for answers.... and they're all there, too....
"Always look on the bright side of life... de-do, de-do, de-do...."
PuterDudeJim
Reply #44 Friday, July 18, 2008 12:32 AM
Reply #44 Friday, July 18, 2008 12:32 AM
Panny, Ever since I first heard your sweet voice on the Skincast, I knew you were a special person. Just thinking of you brightens my day! I have enjoyed each and every one of the PMs and emails from you. All the huggles in the world can't replace your presence in my world. You have given a lot to the skinning community because you have a special kind of heart, the kind that fills the air with the warmth of the sun with just the sound of your voice! So, when you feel a little down, just remember.... You are my sunshine! Luvs and huggles....xxx.
Fuzzy Logic
Reply #45 Friday, July 18, 2008 2:35 AM
Reply #45 Friday, July 18, 2008 2:35 AM
I'm going to get hammered for typing this, but who cares...
Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with string
These are a few of my favourite things!
Cream colored ponies and crisp apple strudels
Doorbells and slay bells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild gees that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favourite things!
Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eye lashes
Silver white winters that melt into spring
These are a few of my favourite things!
When the dog bites, when the bee stings
When I'm feeling sad, I simply remember
my favourite things!
and then I don't feel so bad!
Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with string
These are a few of my favourite things!
Cream colored ponies and crisp apple strudels
Doorbells and slay bells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild gees that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favourite things!
Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eye lashes
Silver white winters that melt into spring
These are a few of my favourite things!
When the dog bites, when the bee stings
When I'm feeling sad, I simply remember
my favourite things!
and then I don't feel so bad!
skybright
Reply #46 Friday, July 18, 2008 4:11 AM
Reply #46 Friday, July 18, 2008 4:11 AM
Kitty, I know you are a beautiful warm loving person. You have been blessed with a talent that knows no bounds.(On many levels) You have been given the gift of being a mother to a beautiful child who loves you dearly. Think of her bright shining face when she smiles at you. Try to hold that picture in your mind...you can't help but smile and feel warm fuzzies all over. Remember you are loved!!! Hugs and Kisses just for you.
Now that made me feel good!!!
I'm going to get hammered for typing this, but who cares...
Now that made me feel good!!!
Vampothika
Reply #47 Friday, July 18, 2008 6:12 AM
Reply #47 Friday, July 18, 2008 6:12 AM
Thanks guys, but ive decided to give up the forums for good, too much stress for me mentally, too many bitch fights going on with an unknown person, and well, if i continue the way i am going, ill deffinatley head for another breakdown. The forums might be good for some, but for me its nothing but a day to day battle, you guys dont have to say anything.....its all good.
I do try my best to help people and participate in community suits and such, but mentally, it really really drains me, and most times i do slump into depressive states, most times i will put on a facade to cover my darkness...... So I guess you wont be seeing me around anymore. A true heartfelt thanks to those who have said kind things and tried to lift me up, but im just mentally spent...
im not sure if ill still make skins.....dunno yet......
please no hard feelings from this end.....its all good....i promise.
....if anyone ever does deside to do a tribute for me one day..PLEASE make sure its scary, gothik, nuts, kooky and just insane........lol thats how i luv it.
xx pandy (kitty)
I do try my best to help people and participate in community suits and such, but mentally, it really really drains me, and most times i do slump into depressive states, most times i will put on a facade to cover my darkness...... So I guess you wont be seeing me around anymore. A true heartfelt thanks to those who have said kind things and tried to lift me up, but im just mentally spent...
im not sure if ill still make skins.....dunno yet......
please no hard feelings from this end.....its all good....i promise.
....if anyone ever does deside to do a tribute for me one day..PLEASE make sure its scary, gothik, nuts, kooky and just insane........lol thats how i luv it.
xx pandy (kitty)
WebGizmos
Reply #48 Friday, July 18, 2008 6:44 AM
Reply #48 Friday, July 18, 2008 6:44 AM
Well Kitty...all I can say is you gotta do what you feel is best for you. I'd hate to see you not create skins anymore because we need to have skins that are out of the norm. And seriously...don't let anyone's inflated ego get to you or this unknown person. Nobody here is special...unless of course they ride the special bus and lick the windows. 
This site is for anyone that wants to create...and you've created some nice stuff...regardless of what anyone else says...and I think a lot of people would like to see you continue doing that. 
This site is for anyone that wants to create...and you've created some nice stuff...regardless of what anyone else says...and I think a lot of people would like to see you continue doing that. 
windoe
Reply #49 Friday, July 18, 2008 6:56 AM
Reply #49 Friday, July 18, 2008 6:56 AM
" l'amitié est la seule chose qui grandit quand on la partage"
not sure about translation but I try anyway :
friendship is the only thing which grows when You share it.
U have a lot of friends here, who like your talent and originality.
keep skins coming !
not sure about translation but I try anyway :
friendship is the only thing which grows when You share it.
U have a lot of friends here, who like your talent and originality.
keep skins coming !
Lantec
Reply #50 Friday, July 18, 2008 7:24 AM
Reply #50 Friday, July 18, 2008 7:24 AM
We still would like it if you visit us on IRC Kitty.
Very little bitch fighting there.
Very little bitch fighting there. I'm going to get hammered for typing this, but who cares...
Bushman
Reply #51 Friday, July 18, 2008 8:11 AM
Reply #51 Friday, July 18, 2008 8:11 AM
Do what you have to do to get your head straight but please don't stop skinning for good. If staying out of the forums is what you need to do then do so, but please don't give up on your talents, WE would be losing a great person who has a lot to offer the world, so please don't quit completely
Just think about it for now, no decision is necessary now, take some time to work things out
Just think about it for now, no decision is necessary now, take some time to work things out
PixelPirate
Reply #52 Friday, July 18, 2008 8:21 AM
Reply #52 Friday, July 18, 2008 8:21 AM
Odd how something like this thread can be of help to me over a different situation I'm facing right now. But I guess you can still call it a demon that spawned older unprocessed demons. "Welcoming the rain" and knowing it will help me get stronger really helps me.
Plus I've decided to do differently than what I usually have and have long talks with people around me I love plus somewhat strangers to me as well, just to have it all examined by as many as possible before I even want to worry about my issue again. So on top of a challenge, I've put myself through another challenge, which I think all works out wonderful for me. In just 2-3 days I feel much better already, and everything doesn't seem so impossible any more.
I definitely need to go through a lot to get back on track though, but it's bright.
I hope you figure out what works for you soon Panndora. As you can see you do mean a lot to all the wonderful people here.
Plus I've decided to do differently than what I usually have and have long talks with people around me I love plus somewhat strangers to me as well, just to have it all examined by as many as possible before I even want to worry about my issue again. So on top of a challenge, I've put myself through another challenge, which I think all works out wonderful for me. In just 2-3 days I feel much better already, and everything doesn't seem so impossible any more.
I definitely need to go through a lot to get back on track though, but it's bright.
I hope you figure out what works for you soon Panndora. As you can see you do mean a lot to all the wonderful people here.
CDAV
Reply #53 Friday, July 18, 2008 2:15 PM
Reply #53 Friday, July 18, 2008 2:15 PM
Hi and peace to everyone. Not knowing Panndora except for the brillant work she does, I kinda have feeling for her. Yes, i get depressed, down, worrying about family, work an all the other tough things we go through. Know what, please don't let yourself get down like that!! Take it day to day if ya have too, K? I am not a Skinner, just trying the new things even if I can't do, gives me a good feeling. Hope to see you around more than NOT, and keep up the great job your doing for yourself and all involved in your wonderful life.
later~cdav
recode
Reply #54 Friday, July 18, 2008 8:17 PM
Reply #54 Friday, July 18, 2008 8:17 PM
may i suggest since i know a friend like you...
- See a professional, it could be organic
- consider therapty
- remember the blessings. billions don't have wnat you have, begiining with 3 square.
- when feeling better, get involved in voluneering, a larger cause often helps
Keila
Reply #55 Tuesday, July 22, 2008 9:45 AM
Reply #55 Tuesday, July 22, 2008 9:45 AM
I am hoping you have cheered up some. I feel bad for you having to go through this. (
Please just ignore anyone who may bug you in the forums, people like that just are not worth responding to.
Please just ignore anyone who may bug you in the forums, people like that just are not worth responding to.
zakai1369
Reply #56 Tuesday, July 22, 2008 11:20 PM
+1
Reply #56 Tuesday, July 22, 2008 11:20 PM
Please just ignore anyone who may bug you in the forums, people like that just are not worth responding to
+1
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Reply #41 Thursday, July 17, 2008 6:49 PM
Felt it was a time to share the love