I seriously need cheering up..........
Wednesday, July 16, 2008 by Vampothika | Discussion: Community
Every once in awhile i slump into deep depression, and i struggle to keep living, but my mind never stops with.....shall we say negative whispers, of the demon kind..... stuff i wouldnt even want to bestow my worst enemy with......
so im asking for those who care about me to please leave me some kind words, why you like me, why i am here, who i am, and guide me back on the road to recovery again.............. 
.....i dont want attention........i want help to remember why it will be okay again soon.....*sigh*
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Vampothika
Reply #22 Wednesday, July 16, 2008 7:04 PM
Reply #22 Wednesday, July 16, 2008 7:04 PM
thanks guys......seriously......im feeling a shade better today.... "still I rise".....yeah screw it, here i come, outa the hole into my world......... 
cplair
Reply #23 Wednesday, July 16, 2008 9:56 PM
Damn it's good to see you! Read Po Smed's mime story, that's guaranteed tears and cramps!
And if all else fails, go to Plan B!
Tons of hugs and a high-5...
Reply #23 Wednesday, July 16, 2008 9:56 PM
thanks guys......seriously......im feeling a shade better today.... "still I rise".....yeah screw it, here i come, outa the hole into my world.........
Damn it's good to see you! Read Po Smed's mime story, that's guaranteed tears and cramps!
And if all else fails, go to Plan B!
Tons of hugs and a high-5...
elvee
Reply #25 Wednesday, July 16, 2008 10:25 PM
Reply #25 Wednesday, July 16, 2008 10:25 PM
elvee lends Kitty an Ear, a Shoulder and a BIG HUG!
Xiandi
Reply #26 Wednesday, July 16, 2008 10:43 PM
Reply #26 Wednesday, July 16, 2008 10:43 PM
I love ya, Kitty. You are an excellent skinner and a wonderful person. Keep your chin up!
Xiandi sends huggles to Kitty
Xiandi sends huggles to Kitty
Jafo
Reply #27 Thursday, July 17, 2008 2:37 AM
Reply #27 Thursday, July 17, 2008 2:37 AM
I have yet to meet ANYONE who actually likes clowns....
ThackeryBagworm
Reply #28 Thursday, July 17, 2008 5:25 AM
Reply #28 Thursday, July 17, 2008 5:25 AM
Don't know you Panndora but I know what you're going through! Out of all the universe, YOU are God's prize creation! You were designed for ETERNITY (in God's image). God wants YOU with HIM in heaven. The Devil blew it and has already lost - Hell was designed for him and he wants to take you (and as many of us as he can) with him. See, this life is a battle for your soul and it ain't no joke! It can get real rough!
Sorry, I know your just trying to help, but this doesn't fit in with what the Bible says. Doesn't sound very comforting either! "My life sucks! Wow, God must really love me"! None of us DESERVE God's love or attention - "for all have fallen short of the glory of God" - He gives His love and attention freely. Also, God doesn't neglect anyone. He is just not going to force himself into our lives! He wants to be ASKED in!
Bottom line, Panndora: "Resist the devil and he will flee from you". That's God's word - it's for real! Tell him to take his depression and fear and abandonment and GET OUT in the name of Jesus Christ! Ge mad! My advice to you is get any negative, nasty, dark stuff out of your life! You need some good old JOY! I used to listen to nasty music all the time, had nasty habits, nasty language... that stuff eats away at your soul. Over the years God has salvaged my life and brought me JOY UNSPEAKABLE!
Just know you have God on your side, waiting to be asked into your heart! You obviously have lots of friends and admirers here that care about you! That should cheer you up! If this journey of life isn't taking you in the right direction, maybe it's time for a detour through the Word of God! Hey that's not bad... just thought that up myself!
God loves you!
God gives us these problems/traumas/difficulties and lays such challenging hurdles in our path because He wants us to keep going and prove to ourselves that we do deserve His Divine Attention. Lucky are the people who get problems that God lays out before them, because it shows God cares.
And think of those living with absolute relief and harmony, and yet God neglects them, because He considers them unworthy of His Blessings.
And think of those living with absolute relief and harmony, and yet God neglects them, because He considers them unworthy of His Blessings.
Sorry, I know your just trying to help, but this doesn't fit in with what the Bible says. Doesn't sound very comforting either! "My life sucks! Wow, God must really love me"! None of us DESERVE God's love or attention - "for all have fallen short of the glory of God" - He gives His love and attention freely. Also, God doesn't neglect anyone. He is just not going to force himself into our lives! He wants to be ASKED in!
Bottom line, Panndora: "Resist the devil and he will flee from you". That's God's word - it's for real! Tell him to take his depression and fear and abandonment and GET OUT in the name of Jesus Christ! Ge mad! My advice to you is get any negative, nasty, dark stuff out of your life! You need some good old JOY! I used to listen to nasty music all the time, had nasty habits, nasty language... that stuff eats away at your soul. Over the years God has salvaged my life and brought me JOY UNSPEAKABLE!
Just know you have God on your side, waiting to be asked into your heart! You obviously have lots of friends and admirers here that care about you! That should cheer you up! If this journey of life isn't taking you in the right direction, maybe it's time for a detour through the Word of God! Hey that's not bad... just thought that up myself!
God loves you!
MickeyMowse
Reply #29 Thursday, July 17, 2008 7:02 AM
Reply #29 Thursday, July 17, 2008 7:02 AM
Kitty, Life has it's ups and downs, highs and lows. Cling to the ups and remember the highs. There is always light on the other side of the tunnel, and all things happen for a reason. You were put on this earth to do great things.....many of which you have done....and many of which you have yet to do. We all luv you here and are here for you in any way possible. Besides...what would WC be without our Kitty Malone!!..geeze..then we'd have to listen to Zu all the time!
Bushman
Reply #30 Thursday, July 17, 2008 9:03 AM
Reply #30 Thursday, July 17, 2008 9:03 AM
As you can tell from the others stories you are not alone with your battle, I also struggle with depression, I had thought of ending it several times, but each time I sought help, just like you are doing (not the exact same way, I choose shrinks 
). PM me so we can talk I don't do IM but I can if that would be better, some of the things I'd like to talk to you about I don't want to post for all to see, being a retired counselor privicy is most important. Please try
Kitty sounds much nicer than your new name so if you don't mind I'd like to refer to you by Kitty (only because I don't know your real first name). You are a very gifted artist with so, so much to live for: your daughter needs you, as I'm sure your friends and family do also. One of the things I had to do was tell my demons to go to hell w/o me
,that I would no longer go down that road. I believe in a heavan and hell, and when I die I just might wind up in hell but not while in my physcial state.
I could loan you my cat for a few days, trust me she will get you to completely forget your depression
, it can be a painful 
but not as painful as being bummed out.
Please pm me so we can talk
). PM me so we can talk I don't do IM but I can if that would be better, some of the things I'd like to talk to you about I don't want to post for all to see, being a retired counselor privicy is most important. Please try Kitty sounds much nicer than your new name so if you don't mind I'd like to refer to you by Kitty (only because I don't know your real first name). You are a very gifted artist with so, so much to live for: your daughter needs you, as I'm sure your friends and family do also. One of the things I had to do was tell my demons to go to hell w/o me
,that I would no longer go down that road. I believe in a heavan and hell, and when I die I just might wind up in hell but not while in my physcial state. I could loan you my cat for a few days, trust me she will get you to completely forget your depression
, it can be a painful 
but not as painful as being bummed out. Please pm me so we can talk
starkers
Reply #31 Thursday, July 17, 2008 10:28 AM
Yeah, me too....an ill wind blew a dark cloud of depression over me a few weeks back.. which has hung over me ever since cos I've not had the strength to muster up enough wind to blow it away again. Obviously I need more curried cabbage! Now that'd cheer me up.. a plateful of curried cabbage, a honeyed chicken breast, honeyed carrots and mashed potato with sour cream.
Oh well, at least the dark cloud is providing me with some shade from the Qld winter sun... you know, barely warm one day, Anna Bligh the next....
Nevermind, summer's just around the corner... you know, steenkin' hot one day, Jennifer Hawkins the next. Yup, global warming has a lot to answer for... tho I could use a lil bit of it around here right about now... the box of tissues I soaked last night just ain't drying in the cooler weather. Yup, I'm finding myself bawling for no apparent reason just lately, like especially last night while watching TV... but then again, televised parliament is enough to make anyone cry uncontrollably.
But yeah, roll on summer... I don't get depressed so bad when there's a few more hours of sunshine and daylight... not so gloomy and makes getting out in the yard more pleasant. Not only that, I can get outside to howl at the full moon cos it's not so cold out. Nope, baying at the moon atop a fence post with those Winter Westerlies blowing up my nightie ain't so nice and don't do me arthritis any good.
Seriously, though, I really hope that you can beat it and can get back to a normal life (normal, normal...what's Normal? starkers wouldn't know normal. ) real soon... so try to smile and take good care of yourself, OK.
Reply #31 Thursday, July 17, 2008 10:28 AM
I seriously need cheering up..........
Yeah, me too....an ill wind blew a dark cloud of depression over me a few weeks back.. which has hung over me ever since cos I've not had the strength to muster up enough wind to blow it away again. Obviously I need more curried cabbage! Now that'd cheer me up.. a plateful of curried cabbage, a honeyed chicken breast, honeyed carrots and mashed potato with sour cream.
Oh well, at least the dark cloud is providing me with some shade from the Qld winter sun... you know, barely warm one day, Anna Bligh the next....
Nevermind, summer's just around the corner... you know, steenkin' hot one day, Jennifer Hawkins the next. Yup, global warming has a lot to answer for... tho I could use a lil bit of it around here right about now... the box of tissues I soaked last night just ain't drying in the cooler weather. Yup, I'm finding myself bawling for no apparent reason just lately, like especially last night while watching TV... but then again, televised parliament is enough to make anyone cry uncontrollably.
But yeah, roll on summer... I don't get depressed so bad when there's a few more hours of sunshine and daylight... not so gloomy and makes getting out in the yard more pleasant. Not only that, I can get outside to howl at the full moon cos it's not so cold out. Nope, baying at the moon atop a fence post with those Winter Westerlies blowing up my nightie ain't so nice and don't do me arthritis any good.
Seriously, though, I really hope that you can beat it and can get back to a normal life (normal, normal...what's Normal? starkers wouldn't know normal.
) real soon... so try to smile and take good care of yourself, OK.
NightTrainthedark
Reply #32 Thursday, July 17, 2008 11:10 AM
Reply #32 Thursday, July 17, 2008 11:10 AM
Kitty, keep in mind that misery loves company. Look for the end of the tunnel in what people say, don't let yourself get blanketed by the comfort of everyones misery.
Skinhit
Reply #33 Thursday, July 17, 2008 12:45 PM
Reply #33 Thursday, July 17, 2008 12:45 PM
Kitty if i could hug you right now I would...I love you and think you are outstanding. Silence the voices.
starkers
Reply #34 Thursday, July 17, 2008 2:20 PM
Yep!! So where the hell is everybody... I buy bags and bags of pretzels for everyone to cry in at my misery party, and nobody turns up!!
Oh well, I'll drown my own sorrows with a cup of Tetleys... anyone know if pretzels dunk orright?
Reply #34 Thursday, July 17, 2008 2:20 PM
Kitty, keep in mind that misery loves company.
Yep!! So where the hell is everybody... I buy bags and bags of pretzels for everyone to cry in at my misery party, and nobody turns up!!
Oh well, I'll drown my own sorrows with a cup of Tetleys... anyone know if pretzels dunk orright?
mdchalice
Reply #35 Thursday, July 17, 2008 2:20 PM
Reply #35 Thursday, July 17, 2008 2:20 PM
NightTrainthedark
Reply #36 Thursday, July 17, 2008 2:24 PM
It's not the pretzels....
Reply #36 Thursday, July 17, 2008 2:24 PM
I buy bags and bags of pretzels for everyone to cry in at my misery party, and nobody turns up!!
It's not the pretzels....
Bushman
Reply #37 Thursday, July 17, 2008 2:34 PM
Reply #37 Thursday, July 17, 2008 2:34 PM
That was a wonderful thing you did there mdchalice
da_zman20
Reply #38 Thursday, July 17, 2008 2:54 PM
Reply #38 Thursday, July 17, 2008 2:54 PM
Here's a piece of genuine advice from someone who has been there, and has been there recently. I've spent most of my life with ups and downs, there are times I've been happy for months, and times that I've been sad for months. It's like a dark cloud some times, but I'm working through it... and here's what's working for me.
about a month ago I got screwed up drunk (this wasn't the answer.. lol). and when I woke up feeling hungover I started thinking about my life, and my demons (alcohol being one of them) and I started to form a plan. Step one was to get off the alcohol, step two was to think things out, and step three was to find something to do that seemed almost impossible, but easily plausible if I just worked at it. My big task came to me that morning like a bolt of lightning.
I noticed a track and field magazine with upcoming events in it, I can't run at all, so that was no help. I looked through it, pondering what I could do, and then I found something for me. I've always been a fairly above average swimmer, I was even captain of the swim team in high school, but I've done nothing to enhance my abilities since then. But when I saw this Aquathlon even it was like it called to me. I spent the whole month training for it, knowing that I could easily fail if I didn't push myself. I set goals for everyday, and every week. I barely made them, but with every one I made my confidence level grew. And the workouts gave me time to think. While I was swimming I was working out the issues in my head, and dealing with them. All the while using the focus given by my demons as a fuel source. My demons may not be gone, but I've used them to my advantage in this case. My event came and went, and I feel like I'm more than I was before that night that I got stupidly drunk.
I still feel the pull of depression well into this month, and even last month while I was training I felt it, but I won't fall into the pit again as long as I keep setting goals for myself, making one of them to do whatever it takes to be happy...
so the real trick is to prove to yourself that you are better than your sadness, and to keep yourself busy in a way that helps you work through your demons, and maybe even use them to your advantage. I know you are a strong person, and i can tell you can do this. You need to set a goal, and stick to you choice. I'm not saying it needs to be anything athletic, or anything specific, but do something you would otherwise do. Change your destiny by understanding your emotions, and change them by doing something "metaphorically big." is there anything you've ever enjoyed in life, that you may want to try to do again? or something just out of reach that you know if you only try you can do? From my standpoint I say do it. and then do something else... my next swim is in Sept. and I won't let my depression stop me from doing it.
about a month ago I got screwed up drunk (this wasn't the answer.. lol). and when I woke up feeling hungover I started thinking about my life, and my demons (alcohol being one of them) and I started to form a plan. Step one was to get off the alcohol, step two was to think things out, and step three was to find something to do that seemed almost impossible, but easily plausible if I just worked at it. My big task came to me that morning like a bolt of lightning.
I noticed a track and field magazine with upcoming events in it, I can't run at all, so that was no help. I looked through it, pondering what I could do, and then I found something for me. I've always been a fairly above average swimmer, I was even captain of the swim team in high school, but I've done nothing to enhance my abilities since then. But when I saw this Aquathlon even it was like it called to me. I spent the whole month training for it, knowing that I could easily fail if I didn't push myself. I set goals for everyday, and every week. I barely made them, but with every one I made my confidence level grew. And the workouts gave me time to think. While I was swimming I was working out the issues in my head, and dealing with them. All the while using the focus given by my demons as a fuel source. My demons may not be gone, but I've used them to my advantage in this case. My event came and went, and I feel like I'm more than I was before that night that I got stupidly drunk.
I still feel the pull of depression well into this month, and even last month while I was training I felt it, but I won't fall into the pit again as long as I keep setting goals for myself, making one of them to do whatever it takes to be happy...
so the real trick is to prove to yourself that you are better than your sadness, and to keep yourself busy in a way that helps you work through your demons, and maybe even use them to your advantage. I know you are a strong person, and i can tell you can do this. You need to set a goal, and stick to you choice. I'm not saying it needs to be anything athletic, or anything specific, but do something you would otherwise do. Change your destiny by understanding your emotions, and change them by doing something "metaphorically big." is there anything you've ever enjoyed in life, that you may want to try to do again? or something just out of reach that you know if you only try you can do? From my standpoint I say do it. and then do something else... my next swim is in Sept. and I won't let my depression stop me from doing it.
mdchalice
Reply #39 Thursday, July 17, 2008 3:39 PM
I think those are really nice,just hope she even see's it and maybe new to her
Reply #39 Thursday, July 17, 2008 3:39 PM
That was a wonderful thing you did there mdchalice
I think those are really nice,just hope she even see's it and maybe new to her
Zydor
Reply #40 Thursday, July 17, 2008 4:53 PM
Reply #40 Thursday, July 17, 2008 4:53 PM
Kitty
I come across those issues many times in the work I do, which whilst business related, is driven by how individuals approach life and how they deal with those issues. Here are three great videos on this, link below, watch in the order shown - only a few minutes each.
Go to : "Think about it" Videos
First got to "Nature of Success" at the bottom of the page.
Second go to "Power of Attitude" in the middle of the page.
Last go to: "Welcome the Rain" at the top of the page.
One contains my favourite quote:
"Its not the things you get, but the hearts you touch, that will determine your success in life"
Worth watching each one a few times, the more you do, the more it will make sense. If nothing else the music is catchy, and there are some stunning photos in there - enough to brighten anyones day!
Regards
Zy
I come across those issues many times in the work I do, which whilst business related, is driven by how individuals approach life and how they deal with those issues. Here are three great videos on this, link below, watch in the order shown - only a few minutes each.
Go to : "Think about it" Videos
First got to "Nature of Success" at the bottom of the page.
Second go to "Power of Attitude" in the middle of the page.
Last go to: "Welcome the Rain" at the top of the page.
One contains my favourite quote:
"Its not the things you get, but the hearts you touch, that will determine your success in life"
Worth watching each one a few times, the more you do, the more it will make sense. If nothing else the music is catchy, and there are some stunning photos in there - enough to brighten anyones day!
Regards
Zy
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Reply #21 Wednesday, July 16, 2008 4:07 PM