Defeated
Thursday, February 10, 2005 by Sleeping Dragon | Discussion: WinCustomize Talk
...tough day today. anyone else ever feel defeated?
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Reply #22 Friday, February 11, 2005 6:36 AM
Reply #22 Friday, February 11, 2005 6:36 AM
Absolutely, I tried defeatism once but I couldn't the hang of it, so I gave up. 
BustinABogie
Reply #23 Saturday, February 12, 2005 3:51 AM
Reply #23 Saturday, February 12, 2005 3:51 AM
Only on the days I still see that I've been de-horsed down to "citizen" from "journeyman.".....which has been tooooooo long!!! 
Cyberworld
Reply #24 Saturday, February 12, 2005 5:56 AM
Reply #24 Saturday, February 12, 2005 5:56 AM
Defeat,as victory,is part of life.I've been through a harsh one recently,which brought me to the edge of reason,logic and life itself...i tried to fly and outwin my limits,yet gravitational and other unexpected factors worked against and had a really painful crash back on the lil planet called Earth.Didn't like the experience,yet it made me just a bit more wise and a lot more patience.Although i let myself be overcomed by passion,anger and fear for a long period of time,though i cried and stayed awake nights and nights again thinking over and over the same things at a point in all these i just couldn't take it anymore,just lost focus and probable cause.Some things are better left forgotten,even under difficult circumstances.I won't tell you to look up and move forward this time,cause i know that carpe diem does not always seem correct,when you are down there is no rule,no philosophy of life to hang on to,no words to live by,you ARE ALONE and struggle only for you.Sometimes it's better to experience failure,rejection and defeat to the maximum degree.If and when you survive you'll be a better person for you,when you come to the edge and look to the center you become able to see yourself clearly,see where you made your mistakes and acquire what is called self-knowledge.And some times a little self-knowledge is all we need...
Sleeping Dragon
Reply #25 Saturday, February 12, 2005 8:11 AM
Reply #25 Saturday, February 12, 2005 8:11 AM
Thank you, my friend Cyberworld. I agree wholeheartedly, and self reflection (for me) works out for the good.
BTW, it's amazing what a little warm air and sunlight will do to help.
BTW, it's amazing what a little warm air and sunlight will do to help.
Cyberworld
Reply #26 Saturday, February 12, 2005 12:29 PM
Reply #26 Saturday, February 12, 2005 12:29 PM
...Thanks SD,for me personally i found my resting place in a small near-by church. Although i'm not much of a believer,God or me or something i can't understand was the only one that listened withouh judging and guided without giving directions to follow.I am at peace with myself now.At last...at long last.
joeKnowledge
Reply #28 Saturday, February 12, 2005 2:50 PM
Reply #28 Saturday, February 12, 2005 2:50 PM
I feel defeated myself:
http://joeknowledge.modblog.com/?show=blogview&blog_id=458498
On public assistance because my employer lied about my unemployment statis (and would have no matter what I filed) so I can;t get any unemployment
On top of that, this is the same place where I was harrassed. On top of that, they do it to other people.
I have no money, my websites I am developing are going down one by one (even my portfolio site of which I use to try to get work), my credit is getting worse, my health is already bad (high blood pressure) because of the abuse I endored from work with my old employer. I lost school because I had to drop so many classes from being sick and my finacial aid was cut.
And now, I have the embarrassment of having people ask questions about my unemployment statis when finding new jobs, having a EVR assurance people visit my home, and in the end take a 7.00 an hour job with no possiblility of moving up all while having a degree.
This is what I get for trying to switch careers in 2001 while living in NYC
http://joeknowledge.modblog.com/?show=blogview&blog_id=458498
On public assistance because my employer lied about my unemployment statis (and would have no matter what I filed) so I can;t get any unemployment
On top of that, this is the same place where I was harrassed. On top of that, they do it to other people.
I have no money, my websites I am developing are going down one by one (even my portfolio site of which I use to try to get work), my credit is getting worse, my health is already bad (high blood pressure) because of the abuse I endored from work with my old employer. I lost school because I had to drop so many classes from being sick and my finacial aid was cut.
And now, I have the embarrassment of having people ask questions about my unemployment statis when finding new jobs, having a EVR assurance people visit my home, and in the end take a 7.00 an hour job with no possiblility of moving up all while having a degree.
This is what I get for trying to switch careers in 2001 while living in NYC
Lantec
Reply #29 Saturday, February 12, 2005 3:03 PM
Reply #29 Saturday, February 12, 2005 3:03 PM
Sorry to hear about your troubles Joe. Hope things start to look up for you. Keep trying.
Sleeping Dragon
Reply #30 Saturday, February 12, 2005 5:45 PM
Reply #30 Saturday, February 12, 2005 5:45 PM
JoeKnowledge, I'm sorry too. I've been down some of those roads this year, and I know what it's like to wake up and have your eyes glazed like a zomby because you feel your life is not worth a sh%^#. But you, Joe, are one of the inspiring people here on this site and that probably is a reflection of every other aspect of your life. Time changes everything (as you well know how it changed for you in 3 years). 3 years from now you could be sitting on that yacht remembering the dirt you were dragged through. Hold on, buddy. From where I'm sitting you are a whole lot more than a wage and a statistic. You're a work of art. A real quality one that was designed by a master. Your character and personality is what you are when the world takes a dump on you. All I can say is get through one day at a time and all of this will pass.
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Reply #21 Friday, February 11, 2005 6:04 AM