Hello, hello again.....
Thursday, March 13, 2003 by JamMeister33 | Discussion: WinCustomize Talk
Okay, let me get this straight...
I have read all of the rules from A to Z and nowhere was I able to locate any reference to the fact that I am not allowed to voice my own opinion.
Evidently, unless I kiss everyone's "hiney" and am all lovey-dovey like certain other neurotic persons who will go unnamed, I will be penalized and/or ostracized from the community since I am not conforming to the general hypocritical mood....
I removed my wallpapers and such since they had obviously had run their course and were no longer of much interest to anyone..
I would think that the freed up space would be appreciated, but no, instead I am now a mere Citizen as though I never contributed a single thing to this site.
Have I left anything out?, are there any people who wish to burn me further?
Any real comments from anyone?, especially administrators, who have something more than vindictiveness to contribute?
I have read all of the rules from A to Z and nowhere was I able to locate any reference to the fact that I am not allowed to voice my own opinion.
Evidently, unless I kiss everyone's "hiney" and am all lovey-dovey like certain other neurotic persons who will go unnamed, I will be penalized and/or ostracized from the community since I am not conforming to the general hypocritical mood....
I removed my wallpapers and such since they had obviously had run their course and were no longer of much interest to anyone..
I would think that the freed up space would be appreciated, but no, instead I am now a mere Citizen as though I never contributed a single thing to this site.
Have I left anything out?, are there any people who wish to burn me further?
Any real comments from anyone?, especially administrators, who have something more than vindictiveness to contribute?
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RustyBlade
Reply #142 Sunday, March 16, 2003 5:00 AM
Reply #142 Sunday, March 16, 2003 5:00 AM
Lots of people loose their jobs if they come out my boss was thrilled because there was hope I would be less of a pain in the ass.
Ya jam the beach works wonders.
Ya jam the beach works wonders.
RustyBlade
Reply #143 Sunday, March 16, 2003 5:03 AM
Reply #143 Sunday, March 16, 2003 5:03 AM
Hey if you don't know about mental illness guy. Good for you. But you might read up some day because if you live long enough someone close due to mates or family will touch your lives. But hell everybodies got problems.
RustyBlade
Reply #144 Sunday, March 16, 2003 5:05 AM
Reply #144 Sunday, March 16, 2003 5:05 AM
IPlural
Reply #145 Sunday, March 16, 2003 5:12 AM
Reply #145 Sunday, March 16, 2003 5:12 AM
well, we really should leave off on getting to deep about it here... We all do attempt to keep topics along the lines of group use, besides jafo might whack me with his wooden bat/club thingy given half the chance 
I am not allowed at support groups, rather nice of them... I do understand though, why that is. For the most part DID/MPD is mostly something women fae and it is almost always because of male influence which causes it. SO they claim it would be to much for a man to be in the group, odd duck out I guess. So I read and read and read... I know more about Bipolar, Borderline Personality Disorder, DID/MPD than I care to
Bipolar, did you know they think it is actually cause by genetics combined with some kind of trauma, be it emotional or psychical or the two combined, which triggers the chemical imbalance at the beginning. It can also happen at anytime in life...
I am not allowed at support groups, rather nice of them... I do understand though, why that is. For the most part DID/MPD is mostly something women fae and it is almost always because of male influence which causes it. SO they claim it would be to much for a man to be in the group, odd duck out I guess. So I read and read and read... I know more about Bipolar, Borderline Personality Disorder, DID/MPD than I care to
Bipolar, did you know they think it is actually cause by genetics combined with some kind of trauma, be it emotional or psychical or the two combined, which triggers the chemical imbalance at the beginning. It can also happen at anytime in life...
IPlural
Reply #146 Sunday, March 16, 2003 5:14 AM
Reply #146 Sunday, March 16, 2003 5:14 AM
I wil do that, but, one can not hold anothers not having a dx up as a negative anymore than having them do the same in reverse...
Styl as with everyone on this site are extreamly good people and no one that I can think of would ever apply anything negative upon someone who happens to have a dx just because of that...
Styl as with everyone on this site are extreamly good people and no one that I can think of would ever apply anything negative upon someone who happens to have a dx just because of that...
RustyBlade
Reply #148 Sunday, March 16, 2003 5:20 AM
Reply #148 Sunday, March 16, 2003 5:20 AM
Yep. Both my parents were bipolar. But for the most part it starts creeping in in the teens and gets worse as we age until medically stabilized. Most hate the meds though because they can take away all the highs but not the lows. And flat feels rather low. Well bud I'm off to bed. I sure do appreciate the help with the refresh, the screen definatly is notibly better. If you ever feel like your about to pull your hair out or tired of biting your tounge or stomping on your own toe feel free to drop me a line. If I'm too sick to respond I just wont. Usually I'm just fine I will leave with a quote from my favorite author Jim Thompson "Well hell buddy thats as easy as nailing your dick to a tree stump and falling off backward...." Night all. 
IPlural
Reply #149 Sunday, March 16, 2003 5:27 AM
Reply #149 Sunday, March 16, 2003 5:27 AM
nighters and will take you up on the offer in time I am sure...
I've been stuck on my own with it all for a bit now and it is showing and has been, here on this site and on another which I avoid because of it.
night!
and will take you up on the offer in time I am sure...I've been stuck on my own with it all for a bit now and it is showing and has been, here on this site and on another which I avoid because of it.
night!
Styl-X Design
Reply #150 Sunday, March 16, 2003 6:39 AM
Reply #150 Sunday, March 16, 2003 6:39 AM
IP+ I was losing the track because of my poor english. A good friend of mine suffer on a 'mental illnes'.
I'm not sure what's the name for it in english, he has good and bad times, but it's strange seeing people change in that way. He always was tuff and 'hard' but than the other day he was afraid of seeing his hands, and picking things up, he walked around with his hands into his sweater. After some time it went better, and he was going onto the street again cycling. He almost got an accident with a car, and it scared the crap out of him. All the hard work of making him feel better was wasted.
like some say, god has a sick sence of humor.
I'm not sure what's the name for it in english, he has good and bad times, but it's strange seeing people change in that way. He always was tuff and 'hard' but than the other day he was afraid of seeing his hands, and picking things up, he walked around with his hands into his sweater. After some time it went better, and he was going onto the street again cycling. He almost got an accident with a car, and it scared the crap out of him. All the hard work of making him feel better was wasted.
like some say, god has a sick sence of humor.
IPlural
Reply #151 Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:08 AM
Reply #151 Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:08 AM
#150 by Skinner Styl skinner - 3/16/2003 6:39:36 AM
IP+ I was losing the track because of my poor english.
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I wish he had not said what he did to you, it was totally unexpected by myself. It was not right in the least, even though I do understand getting defensive, it doesn't make it right and that was totally wrong.... sorry it happened, your very good people....
A good friend of mine suffer on a 'mental illnes'.
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very sorry to hear/read this, it is hard on him I am sure but also just as hardon you and other loved ones left feeling useless because nothing seems to bring them out of it, costing you emoationally along the line.... The fact you care for him and enough so that you wish to help even if not possible because of things outside of your control, really does in fact...
I'm not sure what's the name for it in english, he has good and bad times, but it's strange seeing people change in that way. He always was tuff and 'hard' but than the other day he was afraid of seeing his hands, and picking things up, he walked around with his hands into his sweater. After some time it went better, and he was going onto the street again cycling. He almost got an accident with a car, and it scared the crap out of him. All the hard work of making him feel better was wasted.
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not wasted, it is a process, one that takes time and can involve many back slides, in time he will make it back out, and with your friendship he will have the added stability of knowing inside he isn't alone even when that is so overwhelming a feeling he can not see anything else.
like some say, god has a sick sence of humor.
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without a doubt, without one doubt...
Styl, please do not take things to heart, what was said pretty much make me decide to not speak of this in the message board at all. because it can actually be worse than speaking religion or politics...
IP+ I was losing the track because of my poor english.
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I wish he had not said what he did to you, it was totally unexpected by myself. It was not right in the least, even though I do understand getting defensive, it doesn't make it right and that was totally wrong.... sorry it happened, your very good people....
A good friend of mine suffer on a 'mental illnes'.
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very sorry to hear/read this, it is hard on him I am sure but also just as hardon you and other loved ones left feeling useless because nothing seems to bring them out of it, costing you emoationally along the line.... The fact you care for him and enough so that you wish to help even if not possible because of things outside of your control, really does in fact...
I'm not sure what's the name for it in english, he has good and bad times, but it's strange seeing people change in that way. He always was tuff and 'hard' but than the other day he was afraid of seeing his hands, and picking things up, he walked around with his hands into his sweater. After some time it went better, and he was going onto the street again cycling. He almost got an accident with a car, and it scared the crap out of him. All the hard work of making him feel better was wasted.
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not wasted, it is a process, one that takes time and can involve many back slides, in time he will make it back out, and with your friendship he will have the added stability of knowing inside he isn't alone even when that is so overwhelming a feeling he can not see anything else.
like some say, god has a sick sence of humor.
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without a doubt, without one doubt...
Styl, please do not take things to heart, what was said pretty much make me decide to not speak of this in the message board at all. because it can actually be worse than speaking religion or politics...
Styl-X Design
Reply #152 Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:20 AM
Reply #152 Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:20 AM
I'm not taking things too heart IP+, RustyBlade was angry at me??
Sorry RustyBlade, wasn't aware I was hurting someone's feelings. Just wanted to say I couldn't keep up with the conversation.
Hope there aren't hard feelings about it.
Sorry RustyBlade, wasn't aware I was hurting someone's feelings. Just wanted to say I couldn't keep up with the conversation.
Hope there aren't hard feelings about it.
IPlural
Reply #153 Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:27 AM
Reply #153 Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:27 AM
na, don't think there are, just was a little worried that you didn't follow and might have been offended by his comment. It relly wasn't that he was mad at you either, just, at that time head and heart were to close to the demons inside kind of thing...
your friends, his hands, I'm one of those people who can look at anything and draw it exactly. Or I will be again in the future, I had put away averything art for a long period of time for different reasons... ANyways, hands, I have always had a issue with hands and can never seem to get them even 80% let alone 100% correct. I have a good idea why this is, but,thats not for the msg board.. anyway, you mentioned it all being for nothing, it isn't... it is just another step forward which is always a great thing
your friends, his hands, I'm one of those people who can look at anything and draw it exactly. Or I will be again in the future, I had put away averything art for a long period of time for different reasons... ANyways, hands, I have always had a issue with hands and can never seem to get them even 80% let alone 100% correct. I have a good idea why this is, but,thats not for the msg board.. anyway, you mentioned it all being for nothing, it isn't... it is just another step forward which is always a great thing
Styl-X Design
Reply #154 Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:31 AM
Reply #154 Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:31 AM
Yeah, think you right IP+.
You used to draw?
You used to draw?
IPlural
Reply #155 Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:36 AM
Reply #155 Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:36 AM
all the time, it was either drugged, drunk, drawing, buried between headphones or all of the above for many years. It was release and it always took me away to some place bbetter at the same time
I am trying to learn again, well, actually I never *lost* the ability, but the connection, emotionally, so it just kind of got put to the side in a box until now
I am trying to learn again, well, actually I never *lost* the ability, but the connection, emotionally, so it just kind of got put to the side in a box until now
Styl-X Design
Reply #156 Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:42 AM
Reply #156 Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:42 AM
You still have some of your old work? I would love to see some of it, I like drawings, wish I could...
IPlural
Reply #157 Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:46 AM
Reply #157 Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:46 AM
this is the only thing I have online at this point in time and it is nothing really. just some 10 minutes or so, I use two different lead B and H4 do a fast sketch and then go back and darken it to liking making changes to perspective and such as I go to fit my taste....
I drew this after kicking around deviantart and then here for a bit, everyone on e of you have played a huge part in my life as far as my desire to draw again, even without realizing you were a part of it. The times I say that it is because of everyone here that I want (need?) to be a part of this I mean it completely, no drama, no smoke screen, no bullshit...
something happen a bunch of years ago and I pushed something that was so deeply a part of my life so far away from me I forgot about it and always knew something was missing but could not figure out what. You people here, and at deviantart showed it to me again...
anway...
enough about that...
I need to learn to not put chips on my shoulder while also learn to not speak to personal, because I do exactly that, and if you haven't noticed, my mind(s) run off at the keys
you should speak on the phone with me/us
http://syakebyte.deviantart.com/
I drew this after kicking around deviantart and then here for a bit, everyone on e of you have played a huge part in my life as far as my desire to draw again, even without realizing you were a part of it. The times I say that it is because of everyone here that I want (need?) to be a part of this I mean it completely, no drama, no smoke screen, no bullshit...
something happen a bunch of years ago and I pushed something that was so deeply a part of my life so far away from me I forgot about it and always knew something was missing but could not figure out what. You people here, and at deviantart showed it to me again...
anway...
enough about that...
I need to learn to not put chips on my shoulder while also learn to not speak to personal, because I do exactly that, and if you haven't noticed, my mind(s) run off at the keys
you should speak on the phone with me/us
http://syakebyte.deviantart.com/
Styl-X Design
Reply #159 Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:50 AM
Reply #159 Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:50 AM
WOW, that's really nice IP+, its detailed, but also simple! You should try to upload some stuff here...
Styl-X Design
Reply #160 Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:52 AM
Reply #160 Sunday, March 16, 2003 7:52 AM
you know mc escher?
let me find some of his work...
let me find some of his work...
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Reply #141 Sunday, March 16, 2003 5:00 AM