Skinning....better than Xanax.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009 by k10w3 | Discussion: WinCustomize Talk
Last week I took off on a 1300 mile trip to Kansas for my son's wedding. I'm kind of prone to panic and anxiety, and with the economy the way it is right now, this trip was sort of like walking on a tight rope without a net for me. However, I am, once again, in the middle of constructing another Windowblind, and during this trip, whenever I caught myself thinking about all the disasters that could befall me (car wreck at any of the states I had to drive through where I don't know anybody to help out and don't have any extra cash to pay anyone to help out; breaking down on the road with no one to help and no way for my spouse to get to me to fix things, because our second car is broken...dying on the road before I GOT to the wedding, etc.), before I started to hyperventilate, I began to think about how I wanted to skin the scroll bar, or what I'm going to do with the Please-Wait animation.
I went the entire round trip (2600 miles) without once freaking completely out in the car, and I owe it all to skinning!
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Reply #2 Wednesday, February 25, 2009 6:25 PM
Awesome Karen!!
and I know ALL about anxiety, I've been diagnosed with the worst case my EX Doctor, had ever seen, and taken meds since the early 80's!
yet I find myself thinking about Widgets in the middle of the night LOL, it helps!
PS.. Xanax sucks, it GAVE me an attack!!, I take Ativan, it used to work well.. not these days though.
Reply #3 Wednesday, February 25, 2009 7:23 PM
Glad you had a good time...hope you divided up the driving.
BTW...Mardi Gras was south of you. 
Reply #4 Wednesday, February 25, 2009 7:45 PM
BTW...Mardi Gras was south of you.
Mardi Gras is anywhere I want it to be! I had my entire desktop skinned for the celebration...I had some ale left over from Troll Thumping Day, and the food I cooked. I don't have to be in New Orleans to HAVE Mardi Gras! It just IS. The town my son got married in is a college town, and there were advertisements on the radio they were having Mardi Gras at one of the clubs in town, and that was in central KANSAS!
(Actually I got back to central Florida on Monday, Mardi Gras was yesterday, so I was here for it, and here is more south than New Orleans.)
Reply #5 Wednesday, February 25, 2009 7:53 PM
I must need to skin again bad. Hugely burnt out at the moment.
Anyone need a Winamp classic done. I forgot what I was doing before I burnt myself out.
Reply #8 Wednesday, February 25, 2009 9:44 PM
I can certainly empathize with you. I've had panic attacks and anxiety as long as I can remember. Skinning has helped me too, especially when I just get stressed out from daily stuff.
Reply #9 Wednesday, February 25, 2009 10:52 PM
Ssshh..... ..Brad'll send you the bill for therapy.....
Reply #11 Wednesday, February 25, 2009 11:47 PM
im the same, anxiety attacks, i cant walk up the street, i wont open my door when i hear someone knock on it. I refuse to leave my house unless its a dire necessity like paying my rent. Constant voices in my head, (that alone drains me alot) I cant take out my rubbish.....the list is endless. I have to be careful with my penion too....ive gone on shopping sprees and been on a bi polar high and spent the whole lot, only to realize that i needed it for living, rent ect.....coming down is harder, you have to realize what you did, and try to fix it...... 
so for most of us, me included, just doing normal things is almost impossible alot of the time.
Most people are ignorant to mental illness, they either lable you crazy or an attention seeker, im deffinatley crazy, but not attention seeking, i want anything but that, but its hard to explain to someone who is sane and can live life normally and do things that we cant.
Ive been bipolar and borderline schiztophrenic for over 10 years.....and my own mother still wont even read up about it on the internet so she can understand me better. I have been labeled the 'fruitcake" of the family. but ive accepted it now, its not my fault,
i didnt ask to be born this way, so i just take it on the chin now...
either way....enough of my drivel.....im very proud of you..!!! so woot woott!!!
......the mind can be a real assh*le to deal with.......glad you won over!! I hope anyone reading this, will think twice in future about berating people with a mental illness... try living a day in our shoes...its not easy. or even a day where you just cant get out of bed, or start sobbing bitterly for no reason other than you are depressed and dont even know why you are crying......its tough.
Reply #13 Thursday, February 26, 2009 8:44 AM
Ah, the little 'inner demon' everyone has. Really should come with a manual that prescribes something other than a bottle o' Uncle Jack to turn the little bugger off... 
Reply #14 Thursday, February 26, 2009 1:57 PM
That bottle o' Uncle Jack uncorked the demons in me. That's why I quit drinking completely 20 years ago. Hmmm, no Jack, no drugs, no sex........................WTF,................I'm DEAD.
I'll have to ask the other people in my head what they're doing.
Reply #15 Thursday, February 26, 2009 5:31 PM
Kitty, I rarely answer the door, and I hardly ever answer the phone, I get my kid to do it most of the time, as I'm terrified of phone calls, it's always bad news..
Reply #16 Thursday, February 26, 2009 5:50 PM
I force myself to do at least one scary thing a day. Self-administered behavior modification techniques are a lot cheaper than medication -- and I don't get those horrible brain hiccups like I used to get if I missed a day of SSRI's.
Reply #17 Thursday, February 26, 2009 5:54 PM
Reply #18 Thursday, February 26, 2009 5:58 PM
haha Ed, no dear, your call was AWESOME!!
Karen, just trying to go to sleep each night IS my scary thing of the day
Reply #19 Thursday, February 26, 2009 6:26 PM
Karen, just trying to go to sleep each night IS my scary thing of the day
Well YA-ah, no kidding! It's dark out, all the "bad" things are on the loose, the inner monologue gets louder, and if you DO fall asleep, there's nobody watching guard, so you don't know whether you'll wake up when "it" comes to get you!
You have to do the scary thing in the middle of the afternoon, with your eyes open wide, when the sun is up and everybody is watching, otherwise you're only reinforcing the anxious feelings.
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Reply #1 Wednesday, February 25, 2009 6:21 PM
Good for you Karen, I'm so happy you had a good time. And any time we can do something without our medications the better in my book. Now if skinning could help me lose 50 pounds it would be great.